surrender your plans to the Lord.

Here lately I find myself being disappointed in certain things. disappointed that it didn’t turn out the way I had expected. and to be honest, I thought that I wasn’t good enough because God hasn’t blessed me with what I wanted at that exact moment( just being totally honest😅). I allowed so many thoughts from the enemy to come in. and I have come to realize that it wasn’t that God didn’t have His hand on my life or that he didn’t wanna bless me, but it was that I was more focused on my plans and what I wanted. I wanted it to be instant. I wanted it to be quicker. and when my plan started failing, it opened up a doorway for the enemy to speak lies into my mind to make me think lots of things. The bible says in Proverbs 19:21,” Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” Now do I believe that there are desires within your heart that the Lord wants to bless, of course. But at the end of the day, I believe that if we walk declaring Jesus is Lord of our life then that means that we might have to sacrifice some things. Not because God wants us to live a boring or depressing life, but because He wants to give us a longer-lasting joy and blessings that come from HIM. not form our own works, not from our own strength, but from our AMAZING heavenly father! Even though at that moment it seems to hurt really bad, you need to remember at the end of the day, God doesn’t intend to bring harm to you, but He does everything for His glory and for your good. So let go of the striving of having to figure out every single detail ( preaching to myself right now LOL) and stop putting so much energy and focus on that and put your energy and focus on God and Where he is Leading you.

I now see that there is more peace and satisfaction in walking in HIS plans and HIS story He is writing for my life than there is trying to do it all on my own. Do I know how the story is gonna end? Not at all. But do I know my God is a good good Father? 10000 %. Even though it might be uncomfortable or it might be a bit of work on my end I have to trust that at the end of the day, my life is not my own and I wanna bring Glory to his name. I wanna be a good steward of the opportunities and gifts that God has given me, so that means taking that leap of faith. Doing that risky move of obedience. Following Him. And watch as your surrender your plans that you thought were “the best thing” slowly fade away and the actually deep desires of your heart within the father begin to be fulfilled.